New Beginnings

Many things have changed sense my last blog entry 6 months ago. The world around me that I have know has changed. Nothing is the same, all that is the same is honestly nothing at all. Not once of what was before is still to this day. Thats where the life of new beginnings comes into play.

Sense my last post every inch of my beliefs has been twisted and turned. I have to go back to where I had once started. I met a guy who I moved in with and was dating. We got engaged, then I ended up pregnant. So here I am 16 weeks pregnant. I'm no longer with the babys father, I dont know a thing about what will happen with my future. All I know is now I am turning back to God.

This past 6 months have been the best and hardest six months of my life. Everything I believed about God I stopped beliving at the time. But being single and pregnant brings me back to really thinking about how much God truly loves me.

When the babys father and I broke up, I looked for a place to go. My cousin learned of a maternaity home. I moved into the Famliy Life Center to help me become independent and be able to work and take care of this baby on my own. This program will help me a lot and will provide me to be where I need to be.

But I really want to be able to grow my relationship back with God. I miss it. I wish that things had not changed. I really want to be able to go back on relying compeletly to God. He deserves that because he is the center of my life. God is so amazing and the fact that he wants me even though I am so far from perfect. I'm pregnant and alone, a sinner but he still loves me. He wants to see me succed and he will be sure I am able to if I continue his will. I'm thankful for a God who is forgiving and loving.

I'm excited that I can have a fresh start to make the right choices. The choices that God would want me to be. This next 6 months will be filled with even more new beginnings. With the birth of my son or daughter. The finding out where my relationship with the babys father ends up, seeing how my relationship with God turns up. There are a lot of things that will continue to change in my life.

Blessed

I know that God loves his people very much. I know that even when I find myself struggling I can see my blessings. God blesses his people, he loves us all and wants to share his happiness with us and his love. But just like everyone else, I cant always feel his blessings and I even sometimes forget he's there. Because I'm so caught up in the world.

What can I be happy God gave me? What can I say our my blessings? Well I have a home to live in even if its not what I wanted. And in a way its like I'm homeless but I do have a place of warmth to stay in. Many children do not get that. I have clean food and water, which is more than what some can say. I have an education, I have a computer, I have freedom of speech and religion. Which is way more than most third world countries.

I want to share my blessings. Its not fair that I can have all of this but some don’t even get a chance for a life because of the country they were born in. Why is this even allowed? I wish they could have blessings like America. And its sad that most Americans complain about how they are not blessed or they need more of this. Why can’t we see the others in the world suffering?

I know that when things are wrong in my life or I'm feeling hurt I only think about myself. I hardly care about others when that happens. I think that I have nothing to live for. That my life is over and a disaster. Which is far from true, I have the means to survive well so many children and people in other countries do not. As Americans we are very selfish.

I hope that God can teach his people the importance of sharing our blessings. And helping his people. He created all of us and each one of us is equal. I think that we need to help our brothers and sisters.

Next time you are feeling that you have nothing at all. Remember that we have way more than most. And that they don’t even ask for a thing. Remember to love and share. We will continue to be blessed and to bless others.

Without HIM

Nothing can separate us from his love, just a lyric from a very popular song. We all love to sing this when we worship. But the truth is sin can separate us from him, maybe not his love but it can cause us not to live with him eternally. Its great to know that he always will love us but it sucks to know that we can be taken away from this if we don't live for him. Sin consumes everything, you let it in and it has your life in less than a month. Then it's so hard to pull away. You want to but everything you try fails and you just get sucked in even more.

The devil makes sin look good. It looks fun and the truth is sin can be fun. But in the long run sin can ruin everything in your life. You can be taken away from the one who will always love you. That's not something I truly want. It just takes one time of sin to consume your life. Many wonderful people have been lost in the world of sin. I want to break away from mine because I don't want to find myself in the end without HIM.

One of the best thing he offers is his forgiveness. Once we are ready he will take his beloved child back, don't wait because we do not always have forever. He does not want us to find ourselves suffering in hell. He loves us but because of this love he wants us to have freewill. But I know that because he loves us so he gave us these lives. And I want to give mine to him. You should join me. And we will find ourselves not having to live without HIM.

Forgotten

When one becomes busy with life sometimes it can be so easy to forget about the one who gave us life. Often in peoples lives he is forgotten people get so caught up in just the simple things, that they forget about the one who loves them most God. I'm guilty of this as well.

We all have somethings in life that just distract us from HIM. Such as a job, a family, school, friends, homework, anything and everything. Do we think that these things are more important, usually we would say not but our actions show otherwise. Have we forgotten what we were designed for?

Would we forget about our parents birthday, or our best friend or even our relationships? We would not. We take time to go out with them, we spend time with them on an at least monthly basis. Wouldn't it be nice if we took our bibles and had coffee dates with God? Wouldn't it be nice if we took the time for him, after all he takes a lot of time to design our futures. God doesn't want to be forgotten. He wants us to remember him in our every movement.

Pray

I was reading a book today which really encouraged me. Its called "You Were Made to Make a Difference" by Max Lucado and his daughter Jenna Lucado Bishop. So far I've only read the first part called "you were made to belong to God" Its super inspiring. The part I'm going to talk about in this post is prayer.

We all often talk about how powerful prayer is but do we really know? Do we realize that prayer is the single most important thing we can do? That we can change the world if we just prayed more and if these prayers were not always for ourselves. The bible tells us to pray without ceasing or to "pray continually." 1 Thessalonians 5:17. People have done this and changed a big part of the world.

Also prayer is always effective. God will use our prayers to change the world If we ask, he will take care of it. This is talked about in James 5:16. He says he will answer. Jeremiah 33:3 says "call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know."

It's amazing what prayer can do. I'm going to try this. I challenge you to. Pray every hour for one day. Remember prayer IS important.

Trust

I know I have way more than enough to think about right now. I over analyze everything. I seriously do. I also worry about everything. Recently I have come to know that. I also have come to see that God has my back and I do not need to worry. I just need to put full trust in him.

Whatever ends up happening in my life has happened for a reason. God knows his plans for me. Even if they seem to definitely not be plans I would want to do. Or it seems to be running everything in ones life. So I also don't need to wonder these or worry about them. I get daily bible verses sent to my phone and one recently just calmed my nerves for the whole day.

I didn't save the text. But I know now to trust God just a little more. I hope you can as well.

Hot Chocolate

Often when Im down or having a bad day I go to McDonalds with one of my best friends, Aubrey. We often sit and drink  some type of warm drink well there. Most of my thoughtful conversations come from there. Being able to ponder about what God has done in my life.

I wonder so much. I often will sit around and ask lots of thoughtful questions, or I will just listen to what she has to say. Interesting enough lately, I have been having this burning passion for not discriminating. Like seriously a burning passion I can sit and tell Aubrey or anyone who will listen my beliefs on how to be treating others.

I wonder if this love for every single person. Is it a new love or passion God has layed on my heart. I know that God calls us to love. It is one of the greatest commandments given from him. Matthew 22: 37 "the second of these is to love your neighbor as yourself."  I feel like this is so important.

I know that every single person on this earth was created from him. And we need to love everyone. 1 John 3:16 "This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. We ought to do the same for our brothers". I want to take this to heart. I don't want to judge for any reasons. I don't want to say mean and hurtful things. I want everyone to feel safe. And I want to move the world or just SAU campus to see that love needs to be happening.  Mother Teresa says "if you judge someone you have no time to love them".

I am going to do something about this. I want to be able to show Love. And I want others to agree with me.