New Beginnings

Many things have changed sense my last blog entry 6 months ago. The world around me that I have know has changed. Nothing is the same, all that is the same is honestly nothing at all. Not once of what was before is still to this day. Thats where the life of new beginnings comes into play.

Sense my last post every inch of my beliefs has been twisted and turned. I have to go back to where I had once started. I met a guy who I moved in with and was dating. We got engaged, then I ended up pregnant. So here I am 16 weeks pregnant. I'm no longer with the babys father, I dont know a thing about what will happen with my future. All I know is now I am turning back to God.

This past 6 months have been the best and hardest six months of my life. Everything I believed about God I stopped beliving at the time. But being single and pregnant brings me back to really thinking about how much God truly loves me.

When the babys father and I broke up, I looked for a place to go. My cousin learned of a maternaity home. I moved into the Famliy Life Center to help me become independent and be able to work and take care of this baby on my own. This program will help me a lot and will provide me to be where I need to be.

But I really want to be able to grow my relationship back with God. I miss it. I wish that things had not changed. I really want to be able to go back on relying compeletly to God. He deserves that because he is the center of my life. God is so amazing and the fact that he wants me even though I am so far from perfect. I'm pregnant and alone, a sinner but he still loves me. He wants to see me succed and he will be sure I am able to if I continue his will. I'm thankful for a God who is forgiving and loving.

I'm excited that I can have a fresh start to make the right choices. The choices that God would want me to be. This next 6 months will be filled with even more new beginnings. With the birth of my son or daughter. The finding out where my relationship with the babys father ends up, seeing how my relationship with God turns up. There are a lot of things that will continue to change in my life.

Blessed

I know that God loves his people very much. I know that even when I find myself struggling I can see my blessings. God blesses his people, he loves us all and wants to share his happiness with us and his love. But just like everyone else, I cant always feel his blessings and I even sometimes forget he's there. Because I'm so caught up in the world.

What can I be happy God gave me? What can I say our my blessings? Well I have a home to live in even if its not what I wanted. And in a way its like I'm homeless but I do have a place of warmth to stay in. Many children do not get that. I have clean food and water, which is more than what some can say. I have an education, I have a computer, I have freedom of speech and religion. Which is way more than most third world countries.

I want to share my blessings. Its not fair that I can have all of this but some don’t even get a chance for a life because of the country they were born in. Why is this even allowed? I wish they could have blessings like America. And its sad that most Americans complain about how they are not blessed or they need more of this. Why can’t we see the others in the world suffering?

I know that when things are wrong in my life or I'm feeling hurt I only think about myself. I hardly care about others when that happens. I think that I have nothing to live for. That my life is over and a disaster. Which is far from true, I have the means to survive well so many children and people in other countries do not. As Americans we are very selfish.

I hope that God can teach his people the importance of sharing our blessings. And helping his people. He created all of us and each one of us is equal. I think that we need to help our brothers and sisters.

Next time you are feeling that you have nothing at all. Remember that we have way more than most. And that they don’t even ask for a thing. Remember to love and share. We will continue to be blessed and to bless others.

Without HIM

Nothing can separate us from his love, just a lyric from a very popular song. We all love to sing this when we worship. But the truth is sin can separate us from him, maybe not his love but it can cause us not to live with him eternally. Its great to know that he always will love us but it sucks to know that we can be taken away from this if we don't live for him. Sin consumes everything, you let it in and it has your life in less than a month. Then it's so hard to pull away. You want to but everything you try fails and you just get sucked in even more.

The devil makes sin look good. It looks fun and the truth is sin can be fun. But in the long run sin can ruin everything in your life. You can be taken away from the one who will always love you. That's not something I truly want. It just takes one time of sin to consume your life. Many wonderful people have been lost in the world of sin. I want to break away from mine because I don't want to find myself in the end without HIM.

One of the best thing he offers is his forgiveness. Once we are ready he will take his beloved child back, don't wait because we do not always have forever. He does not want us to find ourselves suffering in hell. He loves us but because of this love he wants us to have freewill. But I know that because he loves us so he gave us these lives. And I want to give mine to him. You should join me. And we will find ourselves not having to live without HIM.

Forgotten

When one becomes busy with life sometimes it can be so easy to forget about the one who gave us life. Often in peoples lives he is forgotten people get so caught up in just the simple things, that they forget about the one who loves them most God. I'm guilty of this as well.

We all have somethings in life that just distract us from HIM. Such as a job, a family, school, friends, homework, anything and everything. Do we think that these things are more important, usually we would say not but our actions show otherwise. Have we forgotten what we were designed for?

Would we forget about our parents birthday, or our best friend or even our relationships? We would not. We take time to go out with them, we spend time with them on an at least monthly basis. Wouldn't it be nice if we took our bibles and had coffee dates with God? Wouldn't it be nice if we took the time for him, after all he takes a lot of time to design our futures. God doesn't want to be forgotten. He wants us to remember him in our every movement.