New Beginnings

Many things have changed sense my last blog entry 6 months ago. The world around me that I have know has changed. Nothing is the same, all that is the same is honestly nothing at all. Not once of what was before is still to this day. Thats where the life of new beginnings comes into play.

Sense my last post every inch of my beliefs has been twisted and turned. I have to go back to where I had once started. I met a guy who I moved in with and was dating. We got engaged, then I ended up pregnant. So here I am 16 weeks pregnant. I'm no longer with the babys father, I dont know a thing about what will happen with my future. All I know is now I am turning back to God.

This past 6 months have been the best and hardest six months of my life. Everything I believed about God I stopped beliving at the time. But being single and pregnant brings me back to really thinking about how much God truly loves me.

When the babys father and I broke up, I looked for a place to go. My cousin learned of a maternaity home. I moved into the Famliy Life Center to help me become independent and be able to work and take care of this baby on my own. This program will help me a lot and will provide me to be where I need to be.

But I really want to be able to grow my relationship back with God. I miss it. I wish that things had not changed. I really want to be able to go back on relying compeletly to God. He deserves that because he is the center of my life. God is so amazing and the fact that he wants me even though I am so far from perfect. I'm pregnant and alone, a sinner but he still loves me. He wants to see me succed and he will be sure I am able to if I continue his will. I'm thankful for a God who is forgiving and loving.

I'm excited that I can have a fresh start to make the right choices. The choices that God would want me to be. This next 6 months will be filled with even more new beginnings. With the birth of my son or daughter. The finding out where my relationship with the babys father ends up, seeing how my relationship with God turns up. There are a lot of things that will continue to change in my life.